She's Only Seventeen: A Novel of Sex, Drugs and Rock & Roll by K. M. Ellis

Author:K. M. Ellis [Ellis, K. M.]
Language: eng
Format: epub
ISBN: 9781537395845
Amazon: 153739584X
Publisher: CreateSpace Independent Publishing Platform
Published: 2016-08-29T23:00:00+00:00

Thomas

May 1988

Kat glanced down at her thumbs then back at me.

“I think I’m pregnant, Thomas.”

“What? How”, I asked incredulously.

“I’m not sure, well I mean I know how” she joked

“You need to tell Shane, and stop telling me important things before him, please.” I said, my anger rising

“That’s the problem…” she hesitated. “I’m… I’m not sure…”

“God, Kat!” I exclaimed. “Who else could it be?”

“Drew…” she admitted meekly.

“Drew,” I breathed. “right” Shane had mentioned they had slept together again

“Kat, tell Shane. Sooner than later.”

“I can’t let him know, I’ll get an abortion!”

“Why would you do that?”

“I don’t want to but, fuck, Shane’s gonna leave me this time, I know he is.”

“And if he does?” I asked

“Then…”

My eyes bore into her. She knew I would be there. Or so she thought. She breathed heavily. “I will tell him tonight. I promise.”

Kat

May 1988

I approached him about the matter soon after Darla went to bed. I couldn’t find the right words to tell him and I was sure that my wording was quite off. He didn’t show much emotion to the matter. He just sighed loudly and put his hand to his forehead. I was terrified at what he might say

Shane

May 1988

“It’s not mine is it?” I asked her, my voice steady and threatening to break.

She couldn’t say “yes or no”.

“I don’t know,” she admitted honestly. She stumbled for words.

“Drew?” I asked, “From that night? Because there is no way in hell I could get you pregnant! The doctor said there was such a slim chance…”

She nodded

“FUCK, Kat!” I shouted, throwing my coffee cup at the wall.

I ran my hands down my face contemplating what to do next.

“Are you going to get rid of it?”

“No,” she said firmly

“Why?”

“I can’t, I’m sorry…” she said weakly

“It can’t be mine, Kat. How many times have we been together and nothing? It’s his!”

“I don’t know, I’m sorry,” she repeated. She kept repeating it over and over again, tears falling down her face. “I’m sorry, I’m sorry,” she heaved between sobs.

I felt nothing for her.

She fell to the ground sobbing as I walked out the door. I couldn’t be near her right now, I didn’t know if I could ever face her again.

Kat

May 1988

I didn’t see Shane again till later the next day. He hardly spoke to me. He came home that night and slept in the guest bedroom. He spoke casually to me after that.

As my second pregnancy progressed, I found myself once again growing into a deep depression. I wanted him to love me, take me in his arms again, but as soon as I thought we were growing closer again, Drew would come between us. I hated Drew, but if I could have gone back in time right then and there I would have never slept with him that night. It had damaged Shane and my relationship beyond repair.

I didn’t know if Shane was sleeping with other women, I didn’t think so; the man was way too busy with his band. I had witnessed him getting off in the shower once, which I ignored.

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